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6 years
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So it seems I've been here for 6 years now. Although that isn't entirely true as I keep disappearing for months/years. Somehow I always come back and it's hard not to since this is where I began. I used to write original stories way before dA in my native language but fan fiction changed me forever. I have to say I find it hard to write or read original fiction nowadays as I really enjoy the acceptance and healthy relationships you can find in fanfics.
Most of you know me as a Bleach fan, some as a Hetalia fan but truth is in my absence I think I found my one true pairing: Hannigram. That doesn't mean I am going to abandon my other ships/fics but this pairing and this fandom has allowed me to see the world differently, it taught me many things and I intend to use the knowledge to edit and add new chapters that are slightly different, hopefully better and more insightful.
I've been on this website since I was 14. Back then things weren't easy for me and there were many things which I had no idea how to handle. A lot's happened since then. I moved to another country, I switched to photography, I lost friends, gained friends, fell in love and lost them too, came to terms with my identity, even got into uni, got a job, quit the job and so on and so forth. I would have never thought I would be who I am today. But one thing remains: no matter how much time passes I will never not smile when I see a comment from you guys. I know what I wrote is silly and cliche but it made me smile anyway. The love, the support... all the kind words kept me going through the darkest days. Thank you!
Most of you know me as a Bleach fan, some as a Hetalia fan but truth is in my absence I think I found my one true pairing: Hannigram. That doesn't mean I am going to abandon my other ships/fics but this pairing and this fandom has allowed me to see the world differently, it taught me many things and I intend to use the knowledge to edit and add new chapters that are slightly different, hopefully better and more insightful.
I've been on this website since I was 14. Back then things weren't easy for me and there were many things which I had no idea how to handle. A lot's happened since then. I moved to another country, I switched to photography, I lost friends, gained friends, fell in love and lost them too, came to terms with my identity, even got into uni, got a job, quit the job and so on and so forth. I would have never thought I would be who I am today. But one thing remains: no matter how much time passes I will never not smile when I see a comment from you guys. I know what I wrote is silly and cliche but it made me smile anyway. The love, the support... all the kind words kept me going through the darkest days. Thank you!
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U.D.D., Updates, Thoughts
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As some of you have noticed, this time I'm back for good. Not only that I am checking deviations you guys upload pretty much every day, but I have actually uploaded new chapters for Unknown Dangerous Desires and Draconem Infernalis, both HichiIchi fanfics, as you know.
BUT. But, that's not all. As some of you probably noticed, I publish more during the weekends, than the week. I am not procrastinating those days, in fact I am out of town at my boyfriend's. In the weekends, however, I have to head back home to babysit my brother since my mum is working then.
So, I can say I quite developed an update schedule: Mon-Thu/Fri I won't probably be around, so no chappies; Thu/Fri-Sun/Mon Andi is going to finally upload stuff.
That's not all. Can you guys remember when I used to have retarded digital drawings on this profile (I probably still have them >.>)? Well, turns out I am really stubborn and I just bought a graphics tablet off E-bay (the god of shopping). Today, it finally arrived. And I have been trying to create stuff, but I gotta admit. I'm awful at it.
Still, I am not giving up. I'm pretty sure that with patience, practice and many sleepless nights I can probably create a decent piece, one day. And when that day comes, the internet should fear me. The amount of HichiIchi that will invade the cyber-world will be terrifying.
Also, what drove me to actually buy it was that I have an idea for an original web comic that I will draw one day. Hint: it's weird and it has outer space in it.
Andi
BUT. But, that's not all. As some of you probably noticed, I publish more during the weekends, than the week. I am not procrastinating those days, in fact I am out of town at my boyfriend's. In the weekends, however, I have to head back home to babysit my brother since my mum is working then.
So, I can say I quite developed an update schedule: Mon-Thu/Fri I won't probably be around, so no chappies; Thu/Fri-Sun/Mon Andi is going to finally upload stuff.
That's not all. Can you guys remember when I used to have retarded digital drawings on this profile (I probably still have them >.>)? Well, turns out I am really stubborn and I just bought a graphics tablet off E-bay (the god of shopping). Today, it finally arrived. And I have been trying to create stuff, but I gotta admit. I'm awful at it.
Still, I am not giving up. I'm pretty sure that with patience, practice and many sleepless nights I can probably create a decent piece, one day. And when that day comes, the internet should fear me. The amount of HichiIchi that will invade the cyber-world will be terrifying.
Also, what drove me to actually buy it was that I have an idea for an original web comic that I will draw one day. Hint: it's weird and it has outer space in it.
Andi
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Like I said, an update...
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The full story can be read here, but beware it is still ongoing: www.fanfiction.net/s/10254098/…
I will upload the story here but I am not sure how many of you are in this fandom. Anyway, the next story that I will update will probably be Pure White or Unknown Dangerous Desires. Or Blue American.
Ta
Andi
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I'm quite ashamed...
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It's been a very long time. My laptop came and died. Also I happen to be to broke to repair it. My uncle moved in with us and now I am using his laptop without him knowing. Not that he has something against but I'd rather he doesn't find this account for obvious reasons.
I don't know when I can update and I am extremely sorry. When I started this account I already knew about people never updating their stories or simply disappearing into thin air and I promised myself I never would be one of them, but ironically I ended up doing the exact opposite. There are no words to express my shame for it. Can't even actually ask for forgiveness. I dunno how many of you will see this or how many of you still use dA anymore.
4 years of dA. 4 years of yaoi fandom. I have not given up yet. I want to rebuild this profile. Rewrite old work as it is really pathetic due to my lack of knowledge English-wise (not that now I am a master or something) and lack of skill story-wise.
I am still living in the U.K. I have started college and everything is fine apart from the fact that I cannot socialize to save my life. I used to have friends until I lost them. Again. Yes, it's possible apparently. My mum got rid of her shitty boyfriend last year in summer, but she's been quite weird lately. Yet again I hate being home. I have a boyfriend as shocking as it is since I thought I was a lesbian, but oh hey he's the best thing that's happened to me so no complaining.
What I am actually doing with my time? College. Photography. Boyfriend. Whining about this or that. Awkwardly interact with people. Seeing my dentist almost every week since I fucked up my dental health. Reading books or fanfiction. Music. Missing my friends.
So see you as soon as possible with updates.
I don't know when I can update and I am extremely sorry. When I started this account I already knew about people never updating their stories or simply disappearing into thin air and I promised myself I never would be one of them, but ironically I ended up doing the exact opposite. There are no words to express my shame for it. Can't even actually ask for forgiveness. I dunno how many of you will see this or how many of you still use dA anymore.
4 years of dA. 4 years of yaoi fandom. I have not given up yet. I want to rebuild this profile. Rewrite old work as it is really pathetic due to my lack of knowledge English-wise (not that now I am a master or something) and lack of skill story-wise.
I am still living in the U.K. I have started college and everything is fine apart from the fact that I cannot socialize to save my life. I used to have friends until I lost them. Again. Yes, it's possible apparently. My mum got rid of her shitty boyfriend last year in summer, but she's been quite weird lately. Yet again I hate being home. I have a boyfriend as shocking as it is since I thought I was a lesbian, but oh hey he's the best thing that's happened to me so no complaining.
What I am actually doing with my time? College. Photography. Boyfriend. Whining about this or that. Awkwardly interact with people. Seeing my dentist almost every week since I fucked up my dental health. Reading books or fanfiction. Music. Missing my friends.
So see you as soon as possible with updates.
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Back from the dead
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Gotta be honest, I thought about quitting countless times. And since it's time I am telling the truth about stuff, I'm going to come up and talk about more...things.
My netbook got virused in April and now I don't know how many of you know that a netbook does not have a CD/DVD drive so I couldn't install another Windows without going to see a professional. And I moved in this town quite recently and basically know no one- apart from the guys and galls that work at my favourite coffee shop. So that was out of question. Now, I am unemployed and have just my mum and a shitton of bills to pay and it took me a while to save up money for a new netbook.
The laptop, because I have one too, is ancient. But also, one of my sweet sweet exes decided to give me one hell of a Windows cd- it didn't have internet drivers, nor did it have sound drivers. Complete bullshit, I'm telling you. The screen is smashed as well.
Now I finally got a new netbook and I LOVE it so much I never want to leave the house ever again- today it took me hours to convince myself to actually go out.
So, I'm back. And some of you may know that I've been updating stories quite a lot lately- or more like in August, but same difference- and I plan on posting them on dA too- what's the point of writing shameless crap if I don't infest the internet with it, eh?
Another announcement I have to make: I am a photography student. I am just as surprised you are. College life is interesting, but a bit awkward?
Also, I'm just going to come out and say it, I am gay. Not bi. Not straight. Not something else. Gay. As in lesbian. And I am trying to leave my gigantic closet. Dean is sobbing in a corner because now there's less denial in there. John Watson's almost proud of me.
And I may have or not shouted out at 2 am that I'm gay in a hotel with VERY thin walls as my coming out method. My mum kept telling me about guys I could date and I simply couldn't stand it anymore. Also, I may or may have not sort of yelled that in class while talking to a friend? (I'm not sure how social relationships work so yeah) and another classmate heard. Said friend didn't believe me though. XD. She was in shock for a while.
My netbook got virused in April and now I don't know how many of you know that a netbook does not have a CD/DVD drive so I couldn't install another Windows without going to see a professional. And I moved in this town quite recently and basically know no one- apart from the guys and galls that work at my favourite coffee shop. So that was out of question. Now, I am unemployed and have just my mum and a shitton of bills to pay and it took me a while to save up money for a new netbook.
The laptop, because I have one too, is ancient. But also, one of my sweet sweet exes decided to give me one hell of a Windows cd- it didn't have internet drivers, nor did it have sound drivers. Complete bullshit, I'm telling you. The screen is smashed as well.
Now I finally got a new netbook and I LOVE it so much I never want to leave the house ever again- today it took me hours to convince myself to actually go out.
So, I'm back. And some of you may know that I've been updating stories quite a lot lately- or more like in August, but same difference- and I plan on posting them on dA too- what's the point of writing shameless crap if I don't infest the internet with it, eh?
Another announcement I have to make: I am a photography student. I am just as surprised you are. College life is interesting, but a bit awkward?
Also, I'm just going to come out and say it, I am gay. Not bi. Not straight. Not something else. Gay. As in lesbian. And I am trying to leave my gigantic closet. Dean is sobbing in a corner because now there's less denial in there. John Watson's almost proud of me.
And I may have or not shouted out at 2 am that I'm gay in a hotel with VERY thin walls as my coming out method. My mum kept telling me about guys I could date and I simply couldn't stand it anymore. Also, I may or may have not sort of yelled that in class while talking to a friend? (I'm not sure how social relationships work so yeah) and another classmate heard. Said friend didn't believe me though. XD. She was in shock for a while.
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